And you become
This is a short section touching, just a bit, on the power of power exchange.
Some people find BDSM to be a permission; it allows them to act in ways that are ordinarily prohibited, gives them a chance to break out of some social barriers. I respect that. But I can’t empathize with it. As long as I can remember, I’ve had a sort of blind lack of inhibition. It’s not that I feel free from the constraints of social mores; rather, I seem to lack some basic ability to notice that they exist.
So when I first started understanding `power exchange’, I found that my desires were very raw; I wanted the energy, direct from its source. I wanted to harness that force and use it in my daily life.
Sometimes I succeeded, sometimes I didn’t. Such is life!